When the Rooster Crows

Peter was among Jesus’s closest friends and disciples. He believed he would remain loyal to Jesus until the very end, even to the point of death. However, when the moment came, he failed badly. Jesus warned him, saying he would deny him three times before the rooster crowed twice (Mark 14:30, ESV).

Peter thought he would never reject Jesus – yet in the moment, that is exactly what he did.

And immediately, the rooster crowed a second time. And Peter remembered how Jesus had said to him, ‘Before the rooster crows twice, you will deny me three times.’  And he broke down and wept” (Mark 14:72), realizing he’d done exactly as Jesus predicted. In the heat of the moment, he caved and did the opposite of what he’d sworn.


Can you relate to doing the very thing you never thought you would do?

Similarly, I swore I’d never go down the path I ended up taking—a path that led to utter darkness, a miserable existence marked by anxiety, secrets, and half-truths, which are lies.

As a child, I remember dreading a certain year in my future. I didn’t know why or what might happen. Still, I figured out how old I would be and spent many hours thinking about, even worrying, what ominous, life-changing event might occur. Ironically, as an adult, I got caught up in life and mostly forgot about it, especially as the year approached.


Amid my self-absorption and everything I was going through at the time, I couldn’t see the light from my spot in the weeds. I forgot how to look up and found myself on the edge of the year I dreaded, not recognizing the dangerous situation I had put myself in. A major, evil event changed the course of my life and caused me to spiral. The devil in my ear, twisting my thoughts and decisions, with a fear that overwhelmed me a hundred times over. I wouldn’t speak of it to anyone for years, letting it fester, define me, and steal my peace.

Doing the very things I vowed I would never do led me down a path I never imagined for myself. It involved abandoning everything I stood for, just like Peter did.

However, my realization didn’t come right away. I didn’t have a rooster crowing to remind me of a Savior who loved me, even at my lowest. I spent years in a daze, drifting further from God into darkness, eventually ending up in the worst of all my abusive relationships and losing my identity and self-worth along the way.

The conscious choice to take the dark path—though I couldn’t see it then—was made on New Year’s Eve, entering the very year I feared. The events leading up to it happened earlier, but I was at a crossroads in my life at that moment and chose the wrong path, a decision I would have to live with for the rest of my life. I had walked away from the Master Builder and tried to renovate my own life using lies and secrets as materials. The result was a condemned soul, a heart that felt beyond repair, past its expiration date.

But God rescued me…

I had no concept of the Kairos moment until years later, when God used an accident to wake me up. That was when I began my journey to healing through Jesus Christ. Another crossroads appeared, and this time I chose God. He redeemed all the lost years, restored my identity in Christ, renewed my self-worth, and revealed a different option I hadn’t known existed until I started attending Southland Christian Church and began my journey as a Christ-follower.

Spending time in God’s Word helped me understand the truth and reality of a relationship with God that once seemed daunting. This gave me the confidence to say no, which ultimately transformed me and improved my character.


It didn’t happen overnight, but as I earnestly and diligently took steps toward God, He revealed to me not only who He created me to be but also how He can use my pain and passion to help others, especially women in abusive relationships who need to hear my story.

Unworthy, yet chosen to advance the Kingdom of God, for such a time as this (Esther 4:14). I am a daughter of the King.

I recently saw someone who stirred up old pain, making me cry, not because of the misery I faced before, but because of the joy I now feel in my present and future—something else I never imagined for myself, thanks to the new life God has given me.

A grateful heart knows many joys.

Oh give thanks to the Lord, for he is good, for his steadfast love endures forever” (Ps. 107:1, emphasis added)!

Purpose in the Pain

I look forward to spring flowers and sunny days kayaking in this season of cold and wintry conditions. Even though the first snow excites me, I miss running. There are reasons to appreciate all seasons. It is the same with life. I realize that if I had not been in the valley, at times, I might not have appreciated the mountaintop experiences as notably.

The valley also helps us learn to depend on God. It may seem the opposite of our nature, but thanking God during those seasons is beneficial. We can blossom even during the off-season if rooted in His Word, allowing it to cultivate the spiritual soil for ultimate growth.

Similarly, God designed the flower to reach its full potential through proper preparation. Its cycles are fascinating. Before we plant flowers, we must cultivate the soil and prepare it to receive the seed for ultimate growth. If the ground is too hard, the seed won’t take root.

The Avas Flowers site explains the cycles of a flower’s life:

Seed Stage: Every seed has a miniature plant that needs the proper nutrients to begin new growth. Some seeds can still grow after many years if they are correctly kept.

Germination: A seed in the earth will need warmth and water to grow. Some even need light at this stage. The seed will absorb water to split the outer shell, opening it up to a transformation as it begins to sprout a stem. The tiny root begins to push its way down as it grows. According to this article, seeds have different needs; some need to go through a fire to sprout, while others go through the stomachs of animals.

Growth: When the leaves begin to form, they convert energy from sunlight and water along with other nutrients to use as food. The root system uses the food to continue to develop, anchoring the plant into the ground, and uses root hairs to absorb water and nutrients. The stem is used to reach toward the light as it sends water and food to the roots and leaves. Then the buds begin to develop to later produce the beautiful blooms we so enjoy.

Reproduction: As the bud forms, it has a tiny but complete flower. Over time, the bud opens and blossoms into a mature flower.

Pollination: Flowers depend on insects, birds, animals, wind, and water to carry pollen from flower to flower. Without pollinators, they could not produce more seeds or new plant life. Even flowers that can’t make their pollen rely on and benefit from other plants during cross-pollination, resulting in more vigorous plants.

Spreading Seeds: This is the final stage in many ways. The wind can scatter the seeds, and the fur of animals, such as humans, water, etc., can carry the seeds to other locations. But a new plant life cycle begins once the seeds fall to the ground.

Consider the God-given design and the little details for a flower to grow, bloom, and thrive. Now, think about how we are designed. Cultivating the hard ground to prepare for the seed is like God cultivating our hearts – if it is still a hard and stony heart, the seed won’t take root. It must be rooted in fertile soil and be fed the right messages of His truth to grow to its full potential.

The roots send nutrients through the stem so it can stand firm to produce the bloom. We also need to be rooted deep in the Word to be fed and stand firm against the enemy to deliver the kind of fruit pleasing to the Creator.

The flower needs the sun’s light to flourish, just as we need the light of the Son in our lives. When we bloom where we are planted, God can use us no matter where we are if we stand tall and look to Him. He supplies the living water of the Spirit to nourish us and help us grow to our full potential into the beautiful bloom He created us to be.

We can grow better if we surround ourselves with suitable pollinators (Christian friends). At times in our lives when we cannot self-pollinate, we have others to lift us and help us through to the other side. It has been said that we are the average of the friends we hang out with the most. In that case, we need to find friends like what we want to become. Otherwise, we will be taken over by weeds, smothered, and eventually wilt.

There is a full- complete flower inside all of us waiting to bloom in the light of Christ’s love. Some of us go through the fire to get there; everyone goes through different experiences that lead us to Christ. But our life experiences help us relate, and we can share our story to assist others by spreading the seeds and message to direct others to Christ and, ultimately, the Kingdom.

Some of the most challenging seasons in our lives bless us and others the most, depending on how much we allow God to use them.

Food for thought:

What if the thing you are going through is preparing you for a bigger purpose?

Matthew 3:18-32

(Parable of the seeds)

What We Believe Matters

Have you ever been so hungry that you would eat almost anything that was placed in front of you? Throw all diets and checking for nutrients out the window, you needed to appease the hunger pains and accept the consequences that come with it later. When we are desperate enough to accept anything – the first thing that is offered to us that sounds appetizing is almost immediately consumed.

When we are hungry for truth and begin to search for something to fill our needs, we must limit our diet to God’s word first, then as other dishes are presented, we have a filter to check the nutrients before we consume just anything that looks or sounds good to our famished flesh.

All false teachings sprinkle enough seasonings to make it appealing to our appetites and tantalizing to our taste buds. It is not until we begin to digest it that we realize how detrimental it is for our mind, body, and soul. Sadly, we may not see how bad it really is for us until much later. We can invite the Holy Spirit into our reading and decision making when looking for truth and allow Him to guide our choices and make sure we are testing the spirits to discern and filter out the toxins before we digest them.

What we believe matters because it drives our actions and dictates how we see and treat the world around us. Our whole value system is aligned with our beliefs and therefore are vital to our well-being. If we are grounded in the foundation of God’s word our mind, bodies, and soul will benefit. James 1:22-24 points out that it is not enough just to hear and believe, but we must be doers also. If we are called to be doers of what we believe then what we believe matters and should align with God’s Word.

“But I say to you, walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh.” Galatians 5:16 ESV

“Beloved, do not believe every spirit, but test the spirits to see whether they are from God, for many false prophets have gone out into the world.” I John 4:1

It’s Not About Me

I don’t run because it is easy. Some days it’s the farthest thing from it. I do it because it is worth it. The benefits far outweigh the difficulty, every time. Our obedience to God is the same way. The benefits are eternal; no matter how difficult it is for us, it’s worth it.

Believers in Christ are not immune to heartache, sickness, or loss. This is a broken world because of sin, and everyone is subject to it. But we do have a guarantee that our salvation is secure through Jesus for eternity and that gives us the hope to remain steadfast while we await his rescue from this world.

We do however have a job to do while we wait, and it is sometimes difficult to find the courage and the words. That is to share the gospel so others will hear the good news and, also accept Jesus Christ as their Savior so they can be with us in the Kingdom of God. Whether it be fear of rejection or the risk of being different, we can let it get the best of us and do not do what we are called to do; be bold and share the Great Commission (Mark 16:15). Jesus told his disciples not to worry about what to say, because the Holy Spirit would give them the words (Matthew 10:19-20). The same is true for us today. It is not our job to fix or change anyone. It is our job to love them where they are, just like Jesus does for us, and let our lives and actions point them to Christ, looking to God’s word for truth. If we are faithful to share what God puts on our hearts, and intentional about how we love and serve others, the Holy Spirit will give us the words when we need them. 

I am beginning to see that the ramifications of not sharing the gospel with others is far more detrimental to us and them than if we risked it and went for it, no matter what others think. It is God whom we need to fear, not man. In Matthew 10:33, Jesus goes on to say, “whoever denies me before men, I also will deny before my Father who is in heaven.” Clearly, that is not something anybody wants when that day comes.

When things are out of my comfort zone, it is my nature to want to avoid them. But when God calls me smack into the middle of it, I know I need to say yes. When I realize it is not about me and go where God sends me, it changes me. There is great spiritual growth, and I gain a new perspective. Not only that but it puts me squarely where God wants me- in total dependence on Him and others will not see me, but they will see the image of God reflected in me, which is my goal in this life.

Lost Art

I find myself at a loss of understanding for why ‘they’ stopped teaching cursive writing in school. Not only do we have a generation that cannot write in cursive, but guess what? They cannot read it either. I realized this recently when my 12-year-old mentee received a lovely note from a lady at church, and when he opened it, he told me that he could not read cursive. I gasped out loud and after I picked my chin off the floor, asked why, thinking silently ‘oh my goodness he is that far behind and is going in the sixth grade this year’! His answer is what floored me and made me think about this issue. He said, when he was in second grade, they stopped teaching it. Wow. I wonder if ‘they’ thought of the consequences before making such a rash decision? Who decided for the world that this would stop anyway? How else are we going to recognize who has doctor  potential?! (Insert cheesy grin)

I remember not particularly liking my signature or the way I wrote certain letters for most of my youth, so I decided to work on the skill to improve it. I spent a lot of time practicing achieving a standard I considered acceptable. I still write a lot of handwritten notes personally and professionally and I know some others who do too. But this is another thing that is fading away as technology overshadows it. I still enjoy sending (and receiving) them. Am I the only person who sees this as a problem or at the very least a sad reality that our up-and-coming kids will not be able to write a nice, cursive letter to anyone much less read one they receive from our generation? I will be very careful as I step down from my soap box as to not stumble. But I thought this was worth sharing with you.

This reminded me of the letters in the Bible. 21 out of the 27 books in the New Testament are in the form of letters. Thirteen of them were written by Apostle Paul, (called the Pauline letters), for a specific purpose and were read aloud to the congregations he sent them to. Although he used an assistant whom he dictated some of his letters, he did however, write a portion of them in his own hand. The NT letters were generally divided into three parts: the address (which consisted of the identification of the person writing the letter and who it was to, an opening greeting, and prayer), the body (held different elements depending on the purpose), and the conclusion (final blessings and greetings to specific acquaintances).[1] Consider the time, effort, and thoughtfulness that went into each heartfelt, Spirit-lead, letter. Once it was finished it had to be hand delivered to its recipients. What an intriguing artistry to appreciate as we re-read each one and consider what was involved in its development. With mailboxes at our front doors, pen, and paper at our disposal, we surely take for granted and do not appreciate the magnificent design and gift we have at our fingertips.


[1]  Brand, Chad, et.al., eds., Holman Illustrated Bible Dictionary, B & H Publishing. Nashville, TN, 2015.

Sea Glass

Have you ever thought about how long it takes to form sea glass? I bet it is a long time. Maybe several decades. The salt water adds to the beauty giving it a frosted appearance. A lot of people hunt it and use it for making jewelry and other unique pieces of art. But it did not start out this way. It was not instantly a finished work of art or even very pretty. It more than likely started out as a jagged piece of broken glass from a beverage bottle. You could say it was just a piece of garbage. It was rough around the edges and painful if you cut yourself on it.

Isn’t that how we start out? Our hearts are rough around the edges, and we cause others pain if they get too close. We could say we are sometimes discarded by others as trash and end up in a sea of troubled waters. Then God lifts us out of the murky waters, just as we are. He begins to shape us and smooth out our rough edges. But just like sea glass, it takes time. It is a work in progress; we are God’s masterpiece. He created us in His own image and although we are not perfect because of sin – He wants us to strive to be more like Jesus, not in our performance but in the way we love, treat, and serve others. Our lives are like shards of brokenness awaiting transformation that is only accessible through our Savior, Jesus Christ.

“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.” (2 Corinthians 5:17 ESV)

Jesus said to him, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.” (John 14:16 ESV)

Angelic Presence

A while back I asked God what He wanted me to write about. His answer was the title of this message. I did not take to pen and paper or computer/keyboard right away. Frankly, I was not completely sure what to write about in that arena. I know a little about them from what I have read in the Bible, but to write about them felt a little intimidating at first. I know I cannot do it on my own by any means.

I began reading a book my friend gave me for my birthday entitled, “Angels” by Billy Graham. I received this gift a few months earlier and had not pick it up to read until then. I believe it was no coincidence that she gave it to me.

It also was not a coincidence that two days later I dreamed about mom and dad. Mostly dad as he stood over me watching me sleep. When I woke up (in the dream) to see him standing over my bed I knew he was there to protect me. I got up and he gave me the best hug! This was a special gift, even in a dream, as when I woke up it made me very happy and stayed with me all day like a warm smile from an old friend.

The next day, my sister called and began to tell me how angels had been on her mind that week. I told her my dream, but I still did not write about them just yet. I forgot about it for a couple of weeks and had not read any more of the book about angels either until one evening I picked it back up and this sentence stood out to me like a sore thumb, “we are not to pray to angels.”

The next morning, my scripture reading led me to Hebrews 1:14- “Angels are only servants, spirits sent to care for people who will inherit salvation.”

He showed me that prayer is a form of worship, and we are only to worship God the creator of all things. Angels are not higher than Jesus and should not be worshipped.  

The next morning, my reading led me to Revelation. 19:10, where John is reprimanded for attempting to worship the angel who was delivering the message. “Then I fell down at his feet to worship him, but he said, no, don’t worship me. I am a servant of God, just like you and your brothers and sisters who testify about their faith in Jesus. Worship only God.” In the notes section of the NLT study bible, it gives this reflection: “God still has angelic messengers, but they are creatures who serve Him, not divine beings to be worshipped. Faithful servants of the past, including Mary, are human beings. They may be honored in our Christian memories, but they have no claim to divinity, and they should never be worshipped.”

I believe and have experienced that God can send messages through many forms, including angels, who are also here to protect all believers everywhere. The presence of angels can be comforting, but most of the time we do not even realize they are with us. They can come in different forms that are unseen or in physical body form, but we may not always know when they are here.  God can send angels to protect and save us from danger as He chooses.

The Holman Bible dictionary defines an angel as, “created beings whose primary function is to serve and worship God. Unlike God they are not eternal or omniscient.” Angels carry out God’s will as He directs them. (Ps. 148:2-5; Col. 1:16) They also preform tasks as mediators. (Acts 7:53; Gal. 3:19; Rev. 1:1; 10:1)

Some people think cardinals are a visit from a loved one or an angel. I am very fond of cardinals. One evening, during this time, a cardinal flew up to the living room window and tried to perch multiple times. I feel God sends me multiple messages until I finally write about it. Perhaps this was another reminder. Angels continued to show up in my reading as I read the book of Revelation. There are some very beautiful imageries in this book if you get a chance to read it again.

I will leave you with this: “And the city has no need of sun or moon, for the glory of God illuminates the city, and the Lamb is the light.” (Rev. 21:23)

The Light

I was sitting in my car at the traffic light this week waiting for it to turn green when my gaze drifted to the cars passing by in front of me. I attempted to read the sign on each truck that sped by and see each person driving them. It was chaotic and hard to keep up, until I diverted my eyes back to the light realizing I needed to be ready to move when it turned green so I would not get honked at if I hesitated even a second (it happens).

When my focus was on the right place, I did not feel overwhelmed by the distractions around me. The same is true, as we go through our day, when we have our eyes on everything going on around us, it can be confusing, busy, and distracting. But when we remember to look up and keep our gaze on God we can be ready to move when He gives the signal. I need to remind myself of this when the things around me seem chaotic or I get too busy; I need to remember to pause and turn my eyes back to the ultimate ‘light’, which is Jesus.

It makes it easier to drown out the noise around us so we can hear God’s voice and discern the direction he wants us to go when we are in His word daily, praying for discernment, and keeping in step with the Spirit.

“Set your minds on things that are above, not on things that are on earth. For you have died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God.” (Colossians 3:2, ESV).

“Let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith” (Hebrews 12:2).

God-Honoring Life

Through the divine nature all around us, we have no excuse for not knowing God (Romans 1:20). There is a difference in knowing of God, his existence, and attributes, and honoring Him above all things. Most people miss the whole purpose of life when not honoring God. Romans 1:21-23 describes this kind of knowing and understanding God through creation, yet not doing what is right based on that knowledge.

I know in my personal experience, for most of my life, I knew God existed, I knew He was good and that He created all things, but I did not know how to put Him first in my life or that I could have a personal relationship with Him. It was not until I completely surrendered my life over to God and began to study His word and genuinely seek His truth that these things were revealed to me. I realized how much I had missed in not pursuing God in this way. Our relationships with God can look a little differently but will include the same principles once the Holy Spirit is activated inside our hearts. My journey has consisted of conversations, praying as well as listening, correction, love, grace, guidance and a lot of mercy and forgiveness. It is the ultimate Father, daughter relationship where I can take everything to Him, knowing He cares and wants the best for me. It is a daily routine of meditation, prayer, reading His word, and humbly seeking direction so I can become who He created me to be for such a time as this. Reading His word and letting it saturate our minds and hearts will help us guard against the lies and false teachings of the world.

Are you tired of fighting battles alone? What if your life never changed from what it is today? If you have not done this, I encourage you to invite the Holy Spirit to dwell in your heart and activate the ultimate Helper to fight the battles you are facing from the enemy, so you can live your best life. The Holy Spirit gives us strength to break the strongholds in our lives that we cannot do on our own. It is only through Jesus that we have access to the Father and the Holy Spirit in this way. Because of Jesus we have forgiveness and freedom.

“I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.” John 14:6 ESV

Baby’s Breath

With the Father by His side, the Groom awaits His bride

He walked the earth to be by her side

He searched the fields for the perfect bouquet

Everlasting love in a fragrant sachet

Mere words fall short and express only in part

The beauty He sees within her heart

A magnificent love story waiting to be told

As their paths cross the journey unfolds

Grace and honor hold hands, their fingers intertwine

In the unity of truth, His glory divine

Made for this moment, their hands finally meet

Their purpose intact, the puzzle complete

A picture of hope for a new life

They come together as husband and wife

Respect, honor, and peace shine through in love

Their Father looks down from Heaven above

A past forgiven, new hope springs forth

A memory shared, their hearts rejoice

All creatures great and small circle around

To witness the union in reverent awe

Baby’s breath, so tiny and sweet

A reflection of purity, His purpose complete

For this moment He died upon the cross

With a loving heart, He bore the loss

To save His bride and live a life

As God intended with the bride of Christ

The kingdom of God awaits us all

An inheritance of joy when we heed the call

Have faith and trust in a mighty God

Who loves us fiercely and forgives our flaws

A servant’s heart He asks of us

We fall on our knees, lift our eyes in trust