Do you remember this little superstition from childhood? Maybe it has carried over into our adulthood? Maybe we need to take a moment to reflect and ask ourselves if we are still putting our stock in these old wives’ tales or an all-powerful God?
We can choose every day to put our trust in a loving God who can bring us joy through any circumstance. We can face any trial that comes our way through the day.
The definition of the word luck, according to the dictionary, is a success or failure apparently brought by chance rather than one’s own actions. But if you search for the word luck in the Bible, you won’t find it.
We don’t need luck- we need Jesus. We need to let our actions reflect our love for Him and trust Him with our day. We’ll have much better odds than by taking a chance on a penny.
Commit your actions to the Lord, and your plans will succeed. Proverbs 16:3
your relationship with Christ dependent on your current circumstances? Do you
only go to Him when you’ve reached your breaking point and exhausted all your
other options or are you a fair weather friend who praises Him when things are
good but as soon as a shift occurs and the tide turns to rough seas you turn
your back on Him?
relationship with God should be that of a Father and child. He’s the same
yesterday, today and forever. Our relationship should be too. When we learn how
to praise Him through the dark times and thank Him for the lessons, we will
start to feel the closeness of our Father. He wants to experience the bad and
the good, the sad times and the joyful times; with Him by our side.
is through the tests and trials that our character is formed. How we handle our
reactions to the bad things in life is a good indicator for where our heart is.
The more we put our trust in Him through all circumstances, the closer our
relationship will be. He always wants the best for us and delights in His
little children coming to Him in thanksgiving and praise but also for respite and
rest under the shelter of His great wing.
my daily devotional this morning from Jesus Calling, this line stood out to me:
“It is impossible to spend too much time thanking and praising Me.
is so true. How many times day do you thank Him? It should be more than you can
count, especially through the hardest days in the middle of the storm. That
is how we keep Him close and rely on Him for strength.
brothers and sisters, when troubles of any kind come your way, consider it an
opportunity for great joy. For you know that when your faith is tested, your
endurance has a chance to grow. So, let it grow, for when your endurance is
fully developed, you will be perfect and complete., needing nothing. James 1:2-4
one of my morning runs, I saw a black and white cat run across in front of me, not
just once but twice. Most of its body was black but it’s head and neck were
white. It made me think about how we look at things as black and white or gray
when we are somewhere in the middle.
used to be all on the black side before I surrendered to Christ. When I began my
journey, it didn’t happen overnight the day I was baptized. The bible says come
as you are not wait until you are completely clean.
then started thinking about pivotal moments in history when there were bad or
good things that happened in the world. We all know exactly where we were when
we heard the news about 9-11 for instance. I have also had pivotal moments
throughout my journey to Christ that I can remember exactly where I was and
about what date it happened. If I don’t remember the date I can look back in my
journals and usually find it.
are considered “Kairos” moments; (a propitious moment for decision or action.)
Once you decide to be a Christ follower you eventually go ‘all in’- you can’t
be both black and white or darkness and light. Most of us probably stay
somewhere in the middle most of our lives. I started thinking about when I went
all in and how long it took from the time, I had my accident and was baptized.
I pinpointed several pivotal moments that I can look back on and know that God
was shaping my character during those times to get me another step closer to a
Christ centered life. I couldn’t see it at the time but can now look back and
recognize how the important decisions I was making were better for my new life
had just come out of an abusive relationship where I felt ashamed, unworthy of real
love and blamed myself for the things that happened to me. It was during this
timeframe of the breakup that I had my accident. The accident changed my life,
but it wasn’t at that exact moment that I went all in with Christ. That was
just the beginning.
was still dating and made bad choices for myself. But God began to work on my
heart and for the first time I realized that I didn’t have to allow a man to
disrespect my body just because that is what he wants. I have a choice. I have
a voice. I learned how to use it and stand up for myself. This Kairos moment
was just after my accident. This was only one stop on my road map to Christ,
but it was a very important one. I could have allowed this person to have his
way that day, like I had done so many times before with other men. But this
time was different. This time, a voice inside me told me I didn’t have to allow
important moment came the following year when I was dating again, this time to
a very nice person, but I knew I had to end it because I still wasn’t entirely
living for Christ. After a getaway weekend, I felt so convicted that I had to
end the relationship as soon as we got back. I couldn’t hide it or hold off any
longer. He could see it all over my face. I couldn’t hide it because God was in
my decision. I broke it off and moved another step closer to Christ.
I was reminded of my accident and the events that happened that day. I saw each
step of that day moment by moment. I saw the changes I began making in my life
afterwards, but my lifestyle and focus on my relationship with God took time.
352 days came to mind. There were still a couple of bumps in the road, but He
led me to where I am today.
calculated the days to see what date that would be and then I searched all my
journals until I found it. Here is what I wrote in my journal 352 days from my
person should never put themselves in a position that they would do anything
for another person when it conflicts with their morals and/or jeopardizes their
character. This type of relationship should only be with God. A person should
not put another person in that position or make it a condition of their
relationship or love for that person on those conditions.”
was very shortly after this that I stopped dating altogether and put all my
focus on my new relationship with God. I knew that is where my focus needed to
be, without distractions. This was my choice and five years later I am still
very happy about it. It gave me time that I needed to grow in Christ and figure
out who I was as a person and child of God.
am now reliant only on God. He is the only one I need to please. The things in
my life that I clung to the tightest are the very things I had to let go of.
The things I hid from for so long are the things that are being revealed and
bring me most joy because it will help others. He created me and saved me for
this purpose. I am chosen by God to carry out the mission He has planned for
has a blueprint for my life that is unique as I am. He connects the dots on my
journey and directs my path on the road map to a Christ centered life that
brings joy and peace even through the speedbumps that occur along the way.
These just make me stronger and through endurance my faith grows.
you look back and see any Kairos moments in your life that shaped your
character and brought you another step closer to Christ? Write them down. Pay attention
daily for any new opportunities. God can use everything for His good.
Dear brothers and sisters, when
troubles of any kind come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy.
For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to
grow. James 1:2-3
has moved some amazing mountains in my life since my accident. Truth be told He
probably moved a lot before that, but I wasn’t paying attention. There were so
many trials to face during the aftermath of the accident. I was in pain. I was
hanging out with strangers and had to rely on them for all my daily needs. I
had to fly home in a back brace and large cast with a wheelchair at every stop,
depending on others to get me to the gates on a red eye flight.
was I going to maneuver my bags, seat, time limits? I wasn’t. But God provided
all these things every step of the way. He moved mountains to get me taken care
of and safely back home. I had an overwhelming sense of peace, especially in
the airport, where normally I would be panicked and nervous. Yet, I had no
worry or fear whatsoever. It was literally out of my hands.
enough I can look back at the accident and realize that was the one mountain He
didn’t move. Why? I believe it was the one I had to hit to realize I wasn’t in
control. It is the one that jolted me awake out of my self-induced stupor. The
one that made me pay attention to what God is doing in my life. The one that
saved my life by the grace of God who created it. He gives me my very breath
and could have easily allowed it to be taken away- but He chose to save me.
is by His divine glory and grace that I am even here to write this today. He
saved me not only from this wreck, but from myself and the train wreck I had
become. My life was in complete and utter shambles – I was holding on to things
I needed to let go of. Like an abusive relationship- who does that?! Me…that is
who. At least the person I was before God intervened. I was gripping it with
both hands. I had two broken arms in one year because I had to let go.
didn’t have the audacity or gumption to stand up for myself in any situation.
All my life I gave myself over to others- especially men who used me and threw
me away without regard to my safety or well-being, without respect for my body.
Why should they respect it? I certainly wasn’t. In order words, I had no
backbone, therefore my back was broken in the accident on the mountain that day
so I could learn to stand firm and take up for myself and others.
may seem like a harsh statement- but it is my reality. I have come to terms
with the lengths God went to bring me home to Christ and be the person He
created me to be. I am grateful and stand in amazement (from my knees) every
single day that He chose me- of all people, in all my brokenness and
unworthiness, to live the life of the new person with a new purpose for my
life. He gives me faith and courage to take the next step every day.
had to be there to accomplish my will for you in your life and show you another
way; a new perspective. It seems drastic, but that’s the only way you were
going to change your mind and your heart.”
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I knew I had to go back. I had to do this on my own- with God. I needed a few moments in that space to thank God for sparing my life and turn a daunting mountain memory into just another spot in the road.
My heart raced faster than the speed I was traveling as I drove a snails pace, praying the whole way. The drive seemed a lot longer than before. I am still a little perplexed how the turn off to the mountain is nothing like my memory.
I noticed the 20 mph curve sign in a new light as I crept around the curve and pull off in front of the rock embankment- tears followed.
I knew I needed this time just as I knew when it was time to go. I didn’t want to linger there longer than necessary, but snapped a few photos, said my prayer, had a moment of silence and moved on.
Yak’s was my next stop, which was the location we had brunch the day of the accident. It had also changed. It is now a coffee shop with a new name and no longer has the tables outside that I remember.
As I sit sipping my chai latte and write my thoughts in my journal for this post- I reflect on the changes that have taken place here in the last six years- and in me.
I found my way back to the t-shirt shop and then meandered back across the street and into the shop where Amorah’s store used to be. Without entirely realizing it, I had traced our steps from that day, only in reverse.
It is now complete- I have come full circle, and am so grateful God gave me the strength to make this journey.
As I sat at the accident site with my journal in my hand this verse came to me. “I love you with an everlasting love.” (Jeremiah 31:3)
For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength. Phil. 4:13
I had plenty of time on my hands with the lengthy layovers and flight delays I’ve
spent a lot of time reading. I met a girl at a writing conference recently who
had also just published a book about her life story- also full of tragedy, loss
and broken bones. We exchanged books and hugs. Her story also included an
abusive relationship, but a different kind of abuse than my own. She was duped
into a marriage full of lies by a cocaine addict and didn’t have a clue until
the ink had dried on the marriage certificate.
dreams of becoming a mom were dashed not only from a broken pelvis, not once
but twice, but also from a lying, drug addicted man whom the foster care dept.
saw to be an unfit home for an adopted child.
prayers for a child were not answered.
can look back at my own story and see places where I was heartbroken over
things not going my way. Things God knew were not good for me. Like an abusive relationship
that I clung to with everything I had in me.
hindsight, God’s unanswered prayers and divine intervention saved my life many
times over and changed it for the better. I think in her story God knew it was
best not to place a child in that situation.
always knows best. He always wants better lives for us that we sometimes want
for ourselves, simply because we can’t see the big picture when we are in the
middle of the trenches just trying to survive.
we can learn to trust Him with the outcome even when we think we want a different
one than what He is offering, we could just enjoy the journey knowing God’s got
this. Just because I can’t see the bigger picture – I know God can and I can
have faith that He is preparing the way before me. I just need to listen and
respond with courage, trust and obey.
have learned in my own life I need not fear the path He leads me to and am
still learning to push through the fear and nerves and the not known variables
to just do the next thing- the one He is leading me to- not of my own understanding
or courage; but through the strength, discernment and faith He gives me to be
confident. Not in myself but in what He is doing in and through me. The past
things I entrusted to men proved to be the things I should have feared most,
not the things God is offering. God is a good, good Father we can trust with
our lives and our dreams.
God has come to save me. I will trust Him and not be afraid. The Lord God is my
strength and my song, He has given me victory.” Isaiah 12:2