Trading my vehicle in recently brought up some reflection into my past vehicles and reasons for purchasing a different model. My 2011 Mazda was the best car I ever owned, and I kept it the longest of any others. Even though I really like the new (to me) one, it was hard to see her go.
That wasn’t the case several years ago. One time I traded a vehicle off in a heartbeat over one weekend simply because I thought it had been seen somewhere it shouldn’t have been or really where I shouldn’t have been. Out of complete fear I got rid of it as fast as I could. Then if anyone said they saw my car at that place- I could say I traded it off. That part would be true. A half-truth is really a lie in disguise.
I have no idea how I managed to get by without getting caught. Those days brought many sleepless nights; tears of misery. In bondage to the panic and fear of someone finding out my secrets.
It felt like I was skating on thin ice and any moment I would fall through. I avoided any subject that got too close to my situation and could potentially be turned into a direct question to me. I certainly never played truth or dare. At least I never chose truth if I did play. I was certainly in over my head and it almost drove me insane.
I don’t miss those days. I am so happy to be free from the chains. No more hiding. I can be me in public and private and not worry about who is watching because they are the same person. I don’t even recognize the person I used to be anymore.
Friend, if you are hiding the truth, lying to yourself and others, trying to manage a secret life; let me tell you something; that is a lot of work. Not cheerful work. Miserable, heart-wrenching work. But there is hope. You can change. You won’t be able to do it alone, but you can do it with God’s help.
I traded shame, regrets, lies, disrespect, abuse, co-dependency, people-pleasing, self-righteousness for freedom, love, joy, peace, faith, hope, healing, forgiveness, thankfulness, salvation by grace and so much more.
He loves you deeply. You know how I know? Because if He can love someone as broken as me and change my life; He loves you too. You can trade in your old life for a new one. That is one trade worth making. TODAY.
Those lies and hidden secrets no longer have a stronghold on me. I am a victor in Christ, and I am so very grateful that He chose to save me.
This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun! 2 Corinthians 5:17
Check out my complete story of how Christ saved me from my past and changed my life forever in my book, Beyond Yourself- A Spiritual Awakening.