Wrestling with God

After a long, brutal winter that didn’t allow for much running, I am finally happy to be back out there as the weather begins to change. Still, it doesn’t come without challenges, but it’s not my first experience in building up again. I know how to do it, but that’s not the challenging part; it’s doing it. It requires diligence, consistency, and intentional steps toward my goal. It also requires giving myself grace on difficult days.

Granted, in the beginning, it’s mostly walking, but the more consistent I am, the more I know I will eventually be able to rerun the whole route. As I mentioned in my blog, Childlike Wonder, last week, our relationship with God requires the same diligence, consistency, and intentional steps toward Him to illuminate our path and draw us closer to Christ. Even if we have experienced closeness to God, these areas can have challenging seasons.

Struggles with others marked Jacob’s life. He stole his twin brother’s birthright and received his father’s blessing, which was meant for Esau (Gen. 25:31). Years later, he was fearful when he was to reencounter his brother. Jacob is confronted by an angel of God, whom he believes to be God Himself. Wrestling with him all night, the angel rendered Jacob’s hip out of joint – and his name was changed to Israel – which means “he strives with God.” – Jacob realized the importance of God’s blessing and was the climax of a lifetime of battles with others (Gen. 25:22).

Jacob was a new man. When he met Esau, his attitude had changed, and he bowed down to him. Esau, like God, showed Jacob unmerited favor and embraced him. Jacob realized his weakness before God, and it taught him the value of continued prayer from one who is helpless. He emerged willing to let his life fall into God’s control (Brand, 849).

God’s blessing was upon Jacob, but He did not choose him because of what he was—He chose Jacob because of what he could become (Gen. 32:22-32; Hosea 12:3-4, ESV).

How often do we wrestle with God and fail to let Him lead our lives? Then, we wonder why we are fearful, worried, or doubting ourselves. These are real emotions, but they stem from the devil, who wants to emphasize our inabilities over faith and trusting God to help us become who He created us to be. Sometimes, our anxious striving keeps us from feeling God’s presence if we allow it to linger. Resting in the presence of God and whispering Jesus’ name helps us refocus.

Like running, my quiet time with God is intentionally dedicated to being still before Him and asking Him what He wants for my life. God gives me grace on days when my diligence is more challenged. But the more consistent we are in putting the devil behind us and allowing God to lead without wrestling with Him, the more blessed we are – not because of who we are – but because of who we can become with God’s help.

“God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore, we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea” (Ps. 46:1-2, emphasis added).